Final 2009 Blog

So here we are, the end of a year. It wasn't a good year to be honest but of course i'm going to say that, the pessimist that i am. Also, what a shit shit end to the year. 9th of December 2009; The kindest guy in the whole universe gets taken away from us. I don't want to go on and on about it, it'll just upset me. I just don't want everybody to carry on like normal as if Zak never existed because that isn't normal. Maybe i'm over reacting but Zak was such a big character that there's going to be a huge big gap in the group. I loved Zak just like everybody else so why should we pretend life is the same as before? UGH. I want a fresh start somewhere new but I'd miss the friends I have here, they are amazing people.

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Its coming up to christmas and I haven't been working at all, they haven't asked me and it is getting me down. Feel like i'm going to get fired and it also means I have no money for christmas yet. I have to get Jasmine something ace for christmas, she wants socks but how boring is that?I need to surprise her but I have no idea what to surprise her with yet. Family problems are also getting the family down which is horrible especially at this time of year, i'm hoping it doesn't ruin the family. A good thing is I may be doing a sports leadership course which is so exciting as I'd love to teach children sports or just keep them fit, I'd do that for the rest of my life

to be continued....

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My Rant

I'm ranting because I have things to rant about so I may aswell.

Firstly, O2 you ignorant fools. I don't know what your doing but me and many others in Turriff have NO signal and can't contact anybody. It's torture, sort yourselves out.

Secondly, why does nobody appreciate old music? I love it. Just because The Eagles are old now doesn't mean they aren't good. Aha+Blondie, I think you are great.

Thirdly, what the hell does dfs stand for? or mfi?

Fourthly, I hate the moonpig advert and all them other stupid singing adverts like the fat short opera guy one grrr.

Finally, why are girls so bitchy? Why can't you just go out and have fun without bitching and fighting and slagging each other off.


Rant over (for now).

update

Summers over now, been back at school two weeks and I can't say I actually miss summer. I had a few fun times but every year I wish the holidays were longer but this year I didn't. Maybe i'm odd or maybe i'm just being realistic and realising i like having everyday planned. I'm also not sure what i want to do now, either events management or fashion management. I also think i'm beginning to realise who my real friends are, they are the one's that stick around throught thick and thin, they are always there for me in one way or the other, they know when somethings wrong and i adore them all for caring so much. I lost a friend this year because of something stupid, i said something horrible to her and have to apologise for it and i'm prepared to do that. I feel like i'm losing anothing friend, she keeps lying to me, i don't understand why. I thought she was one of my best friends and i could tell her anything but i think she's been telling all her friends and the things she says to me and completely different to what she says to anybody else and what she says to me doesnt sound as convincing, i don't know whether i can trust her anymore and i dont want to say that but i really don't. I care about her and will always be there but what she did hurt me and lying is one of the most hurtful things you can do to someone. I want to be like ugly betty because she is a very strong minded woman and she's just awesome, if you haven't watched ugly betty do it. I put shaving foam in my dogs eye but i didn't mean to, i washed it out straight after and he told me he still loves me so its okay, i'm not panicing. I went to see The Ugly Truth and it's actually surprisingly good, its funny but it's very typical whats going to happen but it just has a very modern twist throughout, its the sort of thing you'd watch with your friends or lover not with your parents. I love hot rod, hilarious film. I hate feeling forced into things, i hate feeling like i'm doing the wrong thing and i hate people who blame without evidence, assholes. I would love to be a house cat, they get things so simple. I think mhiara should be a beaver, cause she looks like one. A nice one.

I'm being weird

I cant really be bothered doing anything right now, i have no motivation. I'm glad my friends are happy and that makes me feel better but i'm not really very happy and i dont know whats wrong with me really, its not very fun at all. I'm not my usual chirpy up for anything self.

ugh

I like french fancies and lacey underwear :)

Oh meeee

Everythings really quite fucked up right now and i feel so shit. First the crash with Kirsty passing away who i knew from guides and she was such a laugh(best angel ever) and worrying about Zo loads who i've got really close too, especially in London at beeaver haha. Then being completely fucked about by a guy who i thought was really nice and would treat me good, he proved me wrong. Sleeping with one of my best friends? thanks, thanks so much. I hate him now, which will be awkward because i'll see him everyday at school and he's a vice captain and i am too. Don't know what to do about her, she's one of my best friends and i love her to pieces and i want to always be friends with her but she knew i liked him and she even told me it was alright so i don't feel i can trust her anymore.

HELLO

I LOVE ebay so much ha, so doe's Mhiara. I'm going to get into it!

I love..

Feldi and all the other amazing friends that i appreciate so much. Justice, stereophonics, Calvin Harris, the eagles and the filthy dukes. London next month, graduate fashion week and the fashion show, Starbucks in covent gardens, shopping with all the lovely women. Isle of Sky with my family. inverness 09. The hoedown throw down dance moves and Miley Cyrus in general, not Hannah Montana so much. the sunshine and warmth it brings. The Inbetweeners, Will from The Inbetweeners and also Simon haha bonerr. Alan Carr. hobnob flapjacks, cream soda and galaxy cookie crumbles are fantastic. calling people by their last name and their derivatives eg Mcniven=Niv, Walton=Walts. When the grass is dry. Havin' a few buds with the buds. summer. summer. summer. Leggings. the 80's. My dads sarcastic humour. Maxxie and Feebs. Cinnamon take away. Anything disney. Long walks in the evening with my bm's.

Summer

I cannot wait until it's warm outside all the time and it's light and never gets dark. I want to have so much fun this summer and i want EVERYBODY to help. I want to do a lot of things.

Here's a list of a few things i want to do this summer!

-Spend a day having a picnic and ice cream at Aberdeen Beach.
-Go for a walk along the old railway track in Turriff.
-Go to Banff beach and sunbathe and play in the ace park.
-Go to Glasgow for a long weekend and do some shopping.
-Go camping somewhere where nobody go's.
-Go into town and go to the cinema twice in one day.
-Fall asleep watching the stars (if i can see any).
-Have the girls over for a tea party.
-Have a bonfire (at Lorna's if she'll allow it).
-Stay over at Mhiara's and meet her little sister and family.
-Go to Inverness as it has been tradition in summer for the past two years (with Lorna).
-Go to many many gigs in either Aberdeen or Glasgow.
-Attend as much BBQ's, bonfires, sleepovers, girly nights in and party's as possible.
-Dance and dance and dance like soooo much.
-Make lots of daisy chains.
-Buy a beach ball, bikini and do my hair natural everyday.
-Smile non stop and let nothing get me down.
-Buy Lorna a very very very nice birthday present.
-Write a very very very very very long letter for Feldi.
-Get lots and lots of pictures so i can keep plenty memories close.

that's all for now!

Exams and info for Mhiara

I have 3 exams left now, which are Biology, Geography and Physical Education. I'll be so glad when there over but I mean, waiting until the 5th of August? Are you serious? THATS TORTURE! I want to enjoy my summer without having to think oh god oh god exam results and yes if i've done well i shouldn't have to worry but i don't have very much self confidence, i'm not very smart to be quite honest. Also Mhiara, i got the idea of blogging on here from you, so thanks! it's really good fun and it probably keeps me from being bored too!

Grow UP!

Goodness. Seriously, some people can be so UNBELIEEEVABLY immature, it drives me crazy i swear. There's a line, where you can be immature and have fun and know when to be serious but i mean, some people just completely cross it as if it's not existent, like a fraction of the imagination. I adore having fun, joking around and laughing so much it begins to make me feel sickish but sometimes jokes can be taken too far and become arguments and nobody wants that surely. So yeah, learn that there are times when you have to be serious.