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Why is this the title? Well, I do love the song by Mumford & Sons but it's actually because I feel like I've started a new page in my life, a new chapter I guess. It's a new year at school, my final year which is really important and I've got a new boyfriend, the best one yet and one I want to keep. I'm going to make the effort this year and I don't just mean at school, I mean with everything. A smile really does go a long way and I've realised this more so recently. I want to do all my homework, ask questions when I don't understand something and listen. After all, the teachers are there to help me learn so I should make use of them. I'm going to try harder with Dad, try to get our relationship stronger because nowadays it's odd. He probably doesn't see it that way but all you have to do is look at us when we're around each other, he doesn't do affection anymore and he's never ever told me he loves me. I know he does but I wish he'd say it, just once. I'm going to try and find a close friend, my best friends in Canada and I don't know when or if she'll be coming back so I need a girl that I can be really close too. I don't want a new best friend, that's like trying to replace her. I just want a girl I can confide in and talk to about anything. I've been having a brilliant time with my boyfriend. I love him so much and words aren't even enough now. How can things go so fast with us, is it wrong? Why does time have to go by so quickly? What does he see in me, what's appealing about me? I can't answer any of those questions but I can't help but wonder. I have had the best of days with him and I hope to have so so so much more. I cannot wait until the October holidays, I want to see him almost everyday but obviously I want to see my family too. I'm so in love it's crazy, I'd do anything for him...